Thursday, February 09, 2006

Last subject, yet......

I have a confession to make. It's going to be my last exam paper tomorrow, yet here I am, back from dinner, sitting my lazy ass in front of the monitor, casually surfing some sites that I probably shouldn't be surfing, and has yet to finish revision for Network Management.


It's going to be a battlefield tonight. Most probably Defintely I will not be sleeping, save for a half hour nap maybe, and will spend the rest of the night struggling to keep my eyes open reading something that I don't understand even after studying for the whole semester.

Then, in the morning, breakfast will be some coffee or Nescafe and some biscuit before heading into exam carrying a half dead body.

In fact, this has been my lifestyle for the past 4 subjects. Everynight before exam day sure will not sleep one, last minute only study.

One last paper and I will graduate, yet with an attitude like this I doubt it will take me anywhere. Some of my friends think I'm hardworking. Actually I'm the total opposite of that.

I'm probably the laziest person in all of ISE. Probably in all of college, even.

The strangest thing is that despite my lazy effort, I still managed to answer the questions in the past 4 subjects. Maybe I won't get all A's lah, coz some marks are definitely gone, but I'm confident I will at least pass. I don't know whether I am just cocky and arrogant or just plain stupid and pathetic.

I think I'm more of the latter.

You know what's the scariest? I know that this is a bad habit, but I'm enjoying it. It's just disturbing to think that I have this kind of mindset. A total lack of motivation to study or do anything. I've been contemplating whether I'm living a totally meaningless existence.


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